The second longing

Well, it's already been really along time I did not do any blogging here. Missing? Surely yes. One of the factors of why I couldn't *and can't* do blogging as the previous days is: there's no internet connection in my shelter :(

The positive impact of there's nothing internet connection in my pc is that I can be more focus on finishing my thesis. Sometimes if I did my thesis, and my facebook, plurk, and twitter are online, so it would be such a great obstacles for me to handle hehe.

But anyway, to have or not to have internet connection in my own room, I am still thekupu. I am always keen on changing better, even if maybe people outside can't see the significant changing inside me.

missing a lot

I am in my step to build myself better.

Thousands times I considered, I contemplated, not only thought, because thinking it once is never enough.

If then it's me decided, it's because I believe we still do believe the best must go with the two of us.

And many times I emphasized, if you believe it, and I believe it, it means we will reach it. We two, will reach it :)

menghidupkan jiwa

memberi makan pada jiwa yang lapar, haus, dahaga.
sampai mata berair.
nafas terdesak.
tubuh terguling, lelah.

jiwa mati, karena hati mati.
na'udzubillah.
jiwa hidup kembali, karena minta ganti hati.
wahai hati, berubahlah.

yaa ayyuhannafsul muthma'innah... hiduplah.

Expensive Design

This design costs Rp. 20 million.

Can you see my initial in the middle of the butterfly? Don't you think that's very beautiful? For me, that is.

Hang Questions

1. Mengapa saya ga boleh liat wall?
Jawab: Konsentrasilah dulu ke thesisnya.
Respon: Baiklah jika begitu.

2. Mengapa kok sabar menghadapi saya?
Jawab: Katanya perasaan wanita itu disenggol sedikit langsung hancur berkepingkeping.
Respon: Jadi, karna kasian?
Jawab: Bukan.

3. Mengapa saya diremove dari friend list facebook?
Jawab: Akunnya bikin badmood.

4. Apa yang bikin badmood? Bagian mana?
Jawab: bandingkan dengan akun saya. Just a clue, no answer.

5. Kenapa ga mau kasi jawaban?
Jawab: sesuatu dan lain hal.

6. Apa itu?
Jawab: Tak mau kasi tau.

7. Mengapa ga mau ngasi tau?
Jawab: Karna satu dan lain hal.

8. Kapan kirakira saya akan dapat jawabannya?
Jawab: Pada waktunya?

9. Bisakah minggu depan?
Jawab: Ga bisa.

10. Kalau 2 minggu lagi?
Jawab: Ga bisa

11. Berapa lama lagi kirakira?
Jawab: Ga tau.

12. Mengapa susah betul menjawab pertanyaan sederhana seperti itu?
Jawab: karna sesuatu dan lain hal.

13. Will you promise me that one day you will answer all of my unanswered questions?
Jawab: Insya Allah.

Itu hanya sebagian dari pertanyaan yang saya ingat. Barangkali pertanyaan2 itu adalah refleksi dari ego saya.